"The amount of physical and emotional pain and suffering you experience because of a decision is no barometer of whether you're being obedient to God."

Today did not go as planned. I woke up late, didn't have time to make a healthy breakfast, and I was tempted by the brownies my mom made for her Bible study group. 

I really wanted to start today, but I didn't. And that's OK, but only for today. I now know where my weak points are in the foundation of starting this life-changing plan. 

The one triumph I had today was getting to church. I go to an amazing church full of wonderful people, with an amazing leadership staff. The quote above is from my pastor's sermon today. We have been studying Acts over the past several months, and he has split the book into four parts. He's treating it like a TV series by splitting it into seasons. We are now in the fourth and final season, and the premiere was over Acts 21. 

For those who are not familiar with the Bible, the Book of Acts was written by Luke, and is also known as the Acts of the Apostles. It picks up right around the time Jesus ascends to heaven after the Resurrection. 

Acts 21 showcases the concerns the apostles and other believers have for Paul as heads to Jerusalem. They believe that since the believers in Tyre prophesied that Paul would be imprisoned, he should not go. 

Paul responded by saying, "Why are you weeping and breaking my heart? I am read not only to be bound, but also to die in Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus."

The bottom line of Ritchey's sermon echoes the quote above - we often have to put ourselves in uncomfortable (or even dangerous) situations to live out the will of God. 

Now, I'm certainly not comparing my weight loss journey to the trials of the apostle Paul. However, going to the gym and lifting weights or working out on the elliptical in front of muscular, skilled, fit people is incredibly difficult for me. Giving up chips, cheesy things, and ice cream is tough for me as well. But that's the point, isn't it? 

I think being on this journey is 100% in God's plan for me, and I need to pray every single day for HIs perfect wisdom to guide me in my weaknesses. I am incapable of doing this on my own, and I think figuring that out is an accomplishment in itself. 

Tomorrow is a new day! I expect you to get on me if I don't write about going to the gym and eating SUPER healthy in Tuesday's blog.

I plan on posting on Sundays, Tuesdays, and Fridays. Sundays will be more of an emotional reflection of how I'm doing, Tuesdays will be about food and recipes, and Fridays will be all about fitness!

-Sarah Bee