Hey all, I've had more medical stuff going on. More weight loss stuff will be posted soon, but I had to write something spiritual. It was weighing on me heavily, and I needed to share.
At church right now, we're going through the Beatitudes in relationship to making disciples. This week, Ritchey preached on Matthew 5:5. "Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth."
When I was a kid, I went to Kanakuk Kamp for three summers. Each year, they give out character awards and one of the traits they said I embodied was meekness. In the past several years, I've almost viewed that as a flaw. I've overcompensated and become much more aggressive. This is a good thing in some ways, but I was reminded that being meek doesn't mean being weak - it means being thoughtful. It means responding to things instead of reacting to them. And really, the change has been because of insecurity. Meekness is something I need to work at recapturing, because as was pointed out in Ritchey's sermon, the opposite of being meek is acting in a carnal way. I have gut reactions to things and have flares of anger that I almost always regret. I have control over how I respond to things, and it's important that I work to be Christlike in those responses.
I've caught myself in the car, immediately jumping to road rage if someone does something I don't view as productive on my commute. I roll my eyes too much at things I don't like. I try to have a witty retort to any criticism. I need to stop that, and realize that my meek nature isn't something that needs to be stifled. Being meek means having a true view of oneself and realizing that my identity comes from God and not from others. Being meek means expressing that truth in attitude and conduct, and in my relationships with other people.